In 3 months, I will be 40.
I want the next half of my life to be different. More accurately, I want the next 20 years of my life to be different. The last 20 years have been fabulous. Absolutely across the board, even the most horrible parts. It's actually the last decade that most of those horrible parts took place.
Sitting on the verge of 40, I realize life isn't meant to be a Facebook post. That entertainment held in my palm will only leave me empty handed. My mind and my body have suffered from this need to preserve my milestones and mishaps on social media. I find myself checking my phone. Which is funny, because no one calls anymore. Like when I was in high school and would pick up the receiver to make sure there was a dial tone and that the phone was actually working- in case someone special might be trying to call me. Now, we look up from our phones to make sure we don't run into things, that no one is trying to get our attention, or if the stop light turns green.
No offense to my friend's list- but there are few and far between any people on it that I really want to be sharing my life with, or more importantly should be sharing my life with. My closest people are bunched in with a lot of acquaintances and their importance to me becomes greatly diminished in a newsfeed of unimportant, trivial, and misinformed posts.
I have been an irrelevant peeping Tom in so many people's lives, that I have forgotten to keep my deepest friends and family relevant to my life.
My infatuation with inspirational videos, memes, and juicy gossip is going to continue, but only with people that I would feel comfortable giving a totally authentic hug to the next time I see them. I want rich relationships. Personal and important. So for almost all of you I am saying goodbye. I wish you well and pray for your health and happiness. Remember- don't believe everything you see or read on the internet, being small minded keeps your life small, and most importantly, don't forget to look up and interact with your world.
I must go- there is a bookshelf with 20 or more books that I haven't read, hikes I haven't taken, and an unknown number of amazing people I haven't even met.
May peace be with you-
Brooke
I want the next half of my life to be different. More accurately, I want the next 20 years of my life to be different. The last 20 years have been fabulous. Absolutely across the board, even the most horrible parts. It's actually the last decade that most of those horrible parts took place.
Sitting on the verge of 40, I realize life isn't meant to be a Facebook post. That entertainment held in my palm will only leave me empty handed. My mind and my body have suffered from this need to preserve my milestones and mishaps on social media. I find myself checking my phone. Which is funny, because no one calls anymore. Like when I was in high school and would pick up the receiver to make sure there was a dial tone and that the phone was actually working- in case someone special might be trying to call me. Now, we look up from our phones to make sure we don't run into things, that no one is trying to get our attention, or if the stop light turns green.
No offense to my friend's list- but there are few and far between any people on it that I really want to be sharing my life with, or more importantly should be sharing my life with. My closest people are bunched in with a lot of acquaintances and their importance to me becomes greatly diminished in a newsfeed of unimportant, trivial, and misinformed posts.
I have been an irrelevant peeping Tom in so many people's lives, that I have forgotten to keep my deepest friends and family relevant to my life.
My infatuation with inspirational videos, memes, and juicy gossip is going to continue, but only with people that I would feel comfortable giving a totally authentic hug to the next time I see them. I want rich relationships. Personal and important. So for almost all of you I am saying goodbye. I wish you well and pray for your health and happiness. Remember- don't believe everything you see or read on the internet, being small minded keeps your life small, and most importantly, don't forget to look up and interact with your world.
I must go- there is a bookshelf with 20 or more books that I haven't read, hikes I haven't taken, and an unknown number of amazing people I haven't even met.
May peace be with you-
Brooke
